still learning

Times of transition are particularly challenging to me. I am still shell shocked about the fact that my children have all grown up. Was I in a fog for 25 years not realizing this was happening, or was I just eating my way through the decades, not knowing that so many years had passed? Food is and has been the constant in my life—it doesn’t grow up and leave me; I eat it first then quickly replace it. Weight loss seems to be a similar story; lose, gain, lose, gain, lose gain. Every time I am certain that I have finally ended the battle, a new battalion of cellulite rises from the ashes, and challenges me to battle one more time. I have even spent some years proclaiming that the fat war was over and the fat won; but, I can’t even stick with that! Here it comes back again and I remind myself that I am still learning.